B'day

...yesterday, taught class whole morning. Carol and I went out for some Sushi O Sushi with friends, afterwards we meet up at my apt had cake and some port, Brian said he's already doen with the batch of alcohol we bout a year ago, man, he's fast... After they left, Carol and I had a long talk, we both felt that we're too different even thought we're so attracted to each other. I'm just not sure if it will work out. So we decided it's the best we break up now instead later, it will just hurt more. She said I looked a lil scared the night before, hmm, I never thought I'm a commitment-phobic... I don't know. We talked and talked until the morning, as the time passes by, she's still so cheerful, kept talking, laughing and hugging me... It made me really sad, and made the break up really hard, I started to wonder if I made the right decision.... What if I'm wrong, then I'd forever kick m yself, cause I'd never know. It was hearrt breaking, and she's not helping the situation by ebing so cheerful. I broke down, and asked her if she'd willing to give it a try again. Well, this is the 2nd time we break up and make up in a week! She's driving crazy. We talked even more, she said maybe I'm juts scared to get hurt. I don't know, I just know I really like her. Night, Carol. xoxo